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It's been a while dA.
So I'm starting again. I won't be deleting my account of course, not in that way, but I intend to breath new life into an account that I can use to retain my connection to the world of Art. Next week begins three years of what will hopefully be the most turbulent, trying and incredible experience of my life thus far, only then hopefully to lead onto better things when I leave with a secure goal in mind. It will be rocky. There are parts that I won't enjoy. People that I will come to love, and others who I will avoid, but all in their own way a part of the experience.
I've spent a good part of this year worrying and being anxious of what it is I'm capable of, I think my past speaks for itself and to those of you who read this and who I, regretably, haven't kept in touch with, I will fill you in.
I've passed my Grade 8 Acting with Distinction, successfully produced and directed an amateur piece of theatre called Top Girls by Caryl Churchill, been accepted at The Central School of Speech and Drama in London for the Drama, Applied Theatre and Education Course and have spent my spare time reading, listening and learning what it means to be independent and alive. I can say without a shadow of a doubt that I am ready for whatever the next three years can throw at me and have spent too long worrying and not enough time doing.
The plan, at the moment, is to broaden my perspectives within the boundaries of Art, be that Theatre, Art or Music, and any of the influences encapsulated by these disciplines to readily add to my own understanding of working in Theatre and how such creative stimuli affect young and vulnerable people. My dreams are strong and hard, possibly to achieve, but I feel I am ready to try and make them happen. I just need to screw in the lightbulb.

At the moment I feel that Theatre (and all of its disciplines therein) and Art should be subjective to the watcher, listener, reader. That Visual communication should not be made of forced objectives, it should inspire unique emotions to each individual and allow their mind to create their own ideas of the piece and its players/styles. Theatre should leap from behind its audiences and scream so loudly it deafens them, it should whisper to children and make them daydream during school hours. It should hold up mirrors to women and men alike, who're repulsed equally when they see their reflections. Art should fly and carry young Dalis on it's leaden wings, Art is abstract without pretension - it should never let you know that it's better than you are. Art must make love with Theatre, a passionate couple that take no shame in their role-play. Art should use as much blood as paint. Theatre should use blood for paint. Their mutual friend of literature, is a loving side partner that drinks cheap fine wine and smokes roll up ciggarrettes whilst shopping at the rag market, alongside poetry who can always smell the insides of the fruit it buys. They buy the food that they all eat, Theatre Cooks whilst Literature makes idle conversation, Art lays the table and Poetry brings dessert. Music shows up after dessert with cheese and a story to tell.
They are all of them without limits.
Most importantly it should never hide, it should shout 'I AM HERE' with every voice it commands and make those who will not listen; tremble.

My course is mainly research based, though is placed within an Artistic practice. I will try over the duration of my 3 years to update my dA journal and gallery with my journey and collections and theories for whoever wishes to read them.

I hope everyone who "watches" my profile is well

Alexander
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Melba Toast

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"Believe you can and you're halfway there"

Lotsa stuff's been happening, mainly on my part an exploration of new plays, playwrights and theatre styles to improve my knowledge in the field for my interviews in March.
UCAS Applications left me feeling anxious, I've never felt anxious before in my life, and for the first time I felt something that I assume is close to depression though I doubt it was that severe. I became very low is the sum of that point.
From that, my year has started up again, A few plays on the go and the exploration of what I can do with Halfway House now that our first show is under my belt.
I'm finding the main issue that I have with any project I undertake is with apathy, being someone with quite a lot of apathy occupying my life I find it odd in other people, as when I have something that I feel passionate about, the idea that the people who I am voluntarily working with don't feel the same is concerning and often means my projects don't work as well... if I stand back from this it sounds like I'm blaming others, which I'm not, I just find it hard to work with people who don't share my enthusiasm. I think it's something for personal growth to achieve in time.
I have taken up drawing again, my drawing as well as acting and theatre seem to have become a lot more disciplined in the past year, I feel different inside and it's a good feeling. Something that came about at an odd time considering going through the anxious phase.
It's all very odd and I'm sure the series of pyschiatrists that are in my future won't be able to help me but we'll see.
So yes, still alive,
Bless your face.

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Welcoming my friend :iconmilkymilk3: He's new to DeviantArt, so bug him to upload moar!

Here are the Clubs ^^ They've some great work and artists:
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" Come on Rude boy, boy can't get it up " ~ Rihanna

Good God I feel like decking someone.
I'm not entirely sure why, my life's taken a pretty good turning in terms of work loads, it's reached the time where everything is off at the moment and I can have an ever so slight rest before it all starts up again... and when it starts up good God will it start up.
I've come to realise how much of my life is spent looking inwardly, "Why am I angry" "Why am I smiling" "What would happen if I did something like that" the kind of questions that I won't say on here but makes me question who I really am, I see my friends who validate me, I speak to them and find a pride that I haven't had before, the stuff that brings tears. I've been told I'm a good judge of character, and I like to think I use this to it's best and when I see certain people who I can name if you ask I know that they will be successful. ARGH I'm experiencing so much of what it means to be normal, I've never felt it... or never felt it and truly understood it and I know I'm still odd to everyone else, but when it happens I know that it's there and it makes me laugh out loud and sometimes I can't stop.
Being Human is a beautiful thing.
I've decided that I'm a die hard Utilitarian... a thing that some of my friends may read in abject horror! But it makes sense when you think about it.
I'm trying to further myself in everything and so far I'm doing pretty damn well.
I hope whoever you that's reading this knows how amazing you are, simply for being human and being able to experience the thing that's called "normal"


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Here's my singular Club ^^ They've some great work and artists:
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And here are some absolutely amazing artists you should check out :D
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On Up.

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"I never did very well in math - I could never seem to persuade the teacher that I hadn't meant my answers literally." ~ Calvin Trillin

Movin' on up, Movin' on up.
Yes I am. Apparently. Ground Zero is finally nearing it's end, Halfway House is pretty much sorted and I can't wait to get started and finally do what I'm passionate about and Stage2 stuff is going pretty well.
I can't complain, I think that I need to do more work, rather than wasting the little free time that I have left.
Work is fantastic but then when you work in chocolate, it should be.

Anywho,
Still alive

Deviant Artist of the Month

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He's got some pretty awesome undead work, so anyone whose reading this should probably check him out.
He's been deviant for about a week now, but has probably been on here for a long time... who knows?! But still. CHECK HIM OUT YO'!

Here are my Mates:
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Here's my singular Club ^^ They've some great work and artists:
:iconballpointclub:

And here are some absolutely amazing artists you should check out :D
:iconfor-certain: :iconaidualk: :iconheartyspades: :iconcalisto-photography: :iconconfabulant: :iconelmfuzz: :icongavade: :iconhibbary: :iconi-am-a-wolfy-one: :iconinfinite-imagery: :iconjustflyakite: :iconkerembeyit: :iconle-cereal: :iconnikkidom: :iconobsessivepessimist: :iconpanniem: :iconrobbybobby: :iconsabtastic: :iconsamurai-pet: :iconsnakebitten07: :iconursulav: :icontortie-kittin: :iconosanox: :iconaidan21:

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"Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone elses opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation"

I seem to be one of those people that have phases of work loads. I'll have none and then suddenly I'll have five different projects. At the moment... d'you know what I'll list them:
* Managing an amateur film company and directing the current Zombie film project
* Designing a logo for a fashion company
* Main Cast in Stage2's production of Under Milk Wood
* Designing a leaflet and a poster for Stage2
* I'm taking two LAMDA exams
There's a lot.
I'm trying to fit time for doodling, and reading but it's getting progressively harder. I'm having a lot of stress with the film company, trying to organise and know everything that happens is proving difficult seen as online communication isn't the best, but it's a great thing to be doing and it's amazing actually feeling like a director :D
I just finished my month of self sufficiency, it was fantastic and shown that I can survive on my own which has prepped me for my backpacking in Europe this summer, it's also enhanced my cullinary skills :)
Othe news is I got a letter from my friend Miriam in China, she sends her love to everyone and she's having amazing fun.
Anywho,
Still alive

My Favourite Deviant Artist for the Month is a fairly experienced member (as I learnt) that started a new account today, he doesn't have much in his gallery so far, but it's pretty damn amazing, here's hoping he'll do more! Give him support peeps!
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Check him out yo'


Here are my Mates:
:iconsarrasanne: :iconsindrome-myndflay: :iconresurrectorofthedead: :iconnarcotic-nightmares: :iconbloodrain101: :iconlauzyjayne: :icon1-of-the-shadows: :iconhypercanaryfairy:

Here's my singular Club ^^ They've some great work and artists:
:iconballpointclub:

And here are some absolutely amazing artists you should check out :D
:iconfor-certain: :iconaidualk: :iconheartyspades: :iconcalisto-photography: :iconconfabulant: :iconelmfuzz: :icongavade: :iconhibbary: :iconi-am-a-wolfy-one: :iconinfinite-imagery: :iconjustflyakite: :iconkerembeyit: :iconle-cereal: :iconnikkidom: :iconobsessivepessimist: :iconpanniem: :iconrobbybobby: :iconsabtastic: :iconsamurai-pet: :iconsnakebitten07: :iconursulav: :icontortie-kittin: :iconosanox:
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